ignorant me.
one close friend of mine in sg has been under chemotherapy for already quite some time. he was found to have tumor in his bone (if im not wrong) - leg bone to be exact earlier this year and will go under the knife real soon. and i just found bout it only one day ago.
i remember the last time we hanged out together was after the collection of a lvl results march last year (i havent been back to sg since then la) well we do still talk but it does not happen frequently. we were rather busy with our stuffs - his being national service and mine working at somas.
but still the very fact that im probably the last one in class to know bout it really shocks me. i mean it just shows how ignorant i am, i always am. sometimes im really disgusted by myself. being the ct rep of class i should be the most updated one, the one who knows bout almost everyth bout everyone in my class - at least i consider it as one of my obligations. which apparently i fail most of the times. what kind of friend i am.
it was his 20th birthday yesterday. im supposed to wish him - i did - but im rather lost, i dont really know what to say to him. like what another friend of mine told me, maybe he doesnt want others to find out and be worried. maybe. but that's another point. if others know then i should know too. he's my friend, but i really wonder if im his.
bleh. the emptiness in me now has been rather distracting, i cant really think of what to do with my architectural garment assignment. bless him.
get well - really well - soon, dude.
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Saturday, March 07, 2009
21:17)
